Keeping Myself Busy

"I'm not much of a man, but I know how I am,
 I know this won't fade away, I will pretend and be strong
 but I wonder where I belong..."

As it currently stands at the time of writing this blog, I remain in the dark conerning the full extent of the situation concerning someone special in my life, and the ongoing battle with her health, but I do know that she's fighting on and making the appropriate plans for her immediate future should the worse happen sooner rather than later. The welfare of her children is obviously of paramount importance, with their grandparents set to provide legal guardianship which is to be written into her will once this has been contested in court in the coming months. I am also being respectful of her wishes by giving her the space she requires as she comes to terms with her situation.
It breaks my heart not knowing exactly what's going on, but all I can do is remain as supportive as I can from afar whilst trying to carry on with everyday life. She insists on me not putting my life on hold and moving on with things, even including encouraging me to meet someone else, but as anyone who knows me well will no doubt testify, letting go is never easy for me to do.

"It's always a struggle to let somebody go,
 it's a natural desire to own your lover, I know..."

So although I'm sick with worry I'm striving to remain as upbeat as possible, and I've started reading 'The Secret' by Rhonda Byrne, as recommended by my lovely kiwi mate, Angela Paul, to help keep my spirits up and promote positive thoughts.
Because of the uncertain future, all I can do is throw myself into work and into organising my sponsored charity event and keep myself as busy as possible.
A brief update on the progress of the charity walk along The South Downs Way in aid of Cancer Research UK next year is as follows:

Plans are progressing nicely for the event which is due to start from Winchester on April 23rd and end in Eastbourne on April 27th, and everything is coming steadily together.
The B&B's chosen for the overnight accomodation have now been contacted, as has the National Trail Officer for The South Downs Way commitee.
There have been a couple of snags concerning the chosen accomodation, resulting in the third stage needing to be 'tweaked' a little bit. The venue recommended in Fulking is currently being sold and is unlikely to remain a guest house, so the best option is to increase the third day by three miles to enable us to stay in nearby Pyecombe. Also the intended accomodation in Buriton will be closed next April, as it's located on a farm who will be in the middle of the lambing season when we're due to pass through the village. Therefore, alternative accomodation is being sought out.
Cancer Research UK remain very supportive and keep in regular touch, prompting and encouraging me all the time.
At work, e-mails to my colleagues appear on a monthly basis and the local 'Bulletin Board' representative has been informed of the event, and she has promised to help maximise the publicity.

I hate to say it, but with Christmas now just around the corner I shall keep my updates to the bare minimum until the New Year, when my campaign will then gather momentum once again.
No doubt everybody's thoughts (and money) will be understandably focused elsewhere, so I shall wait until January to really drive the sponsorship requests and to really test your patience with my demands! Lol.
In all seriousness however, nowadays it seems everybody knows somebody effected in some way or other by cancer, so I won't apologise for promoting my charity walk next April as I'm sure you can appreciate that my efforts are worthy of a very good cause.

Thanks in advance for all your continual support.

Ramblin' Steve