"When the darkness takes me over,
face down, emptier than zero,
invisible, you come to me...quietly.
Stay beside me, whisper to me, "Here I am", and the loneliness fades..."
After the rather downbeat nature of my previous blogs, I felt it was high time that I got back to my old self: chilled and laid-back, calm and reflective, but above all...Mr.Happy-Go-Bloody-Lucky!
The past few weeks may have been personally tough, but due to the loving support and friendship of some wonderful people, (see the 'Name Dropping' at the end of this blog), I now find myself with my faith restored in human kindness once again.
As much as I still have strong feelings for my ex, even more so due to her tragic circumstances, I have to finally accept the truth, and respect her wishes by moving on with my life. I've said this before I know, but now I must really do it.
"Some people think I'm somethin', well you gave me that, I know,
but I always feel like nothing when I'm in the dark alone,
you provide the soul, the spark, that drives me on,
makes me something more than flesh and bone..."
The charity campaign in aid of Cancer Research UK is proving an unbelievable tonic for me.
The donations have been flooding in and I have been genuinely touched by everybody's kindness.
I've now surpassed £300 in donations, which means that my employer will match this figure, resulting in £600 plus raised so far, with still well over a month to go until the event...and that's just me, as there are three other lads raising funds as well.
I am still awaiting a re-scheduled meeting with the local fundraising manager from Cancer Research UK, but I'm armed with various local resources in the hope that she can push the promotion of the event.
The South Downs Way - 100 miles from Winchester to Eastbourne - 23rd to 27th April.
All donations are always welcome - please see link attached below:
http://www.justgiving.com/SteveMuskett27010
My recent status of sobriety has been maintained, nearly one week now, and I've passed a few tests of my self-discipline, although the big test is next weekend when I must abstain from indulging on St.Patrick's Day, which is never going to be easy. But I take comfort in the knowledge that I've just booked my flight to Ireland to catch up with friends in June, so I'll be able to enjoy a few pints of the 'black stuff' then.
And so, to the 'Name Dropping'...and much thanks goes out to all of the following:
Firstly, to four of my loyal and avid readers, TWL, Elona, Trace, and Lucy ~ the fact that you are all still in my life and offer me continual support remains a great inspiration to me.
Secondly, to my lunchtime companions and work colleagues, Jane, Nicky, and Giverny, for their wit and wisdom, and for talking some sense into me when needed!
Also, a big thank you goes to my fellow sufferer of a Leeds United fanatic, Jennie...may we always march on together!?
And finally, cheers to all my drinking buddies, Curph, Tom, and Chappers ~ although I'm denying myself the booze at the moment, I will be rejoining you all properly from April 27th...and no doubt making up for lost time, and also to Sarah as I think some exotic cocktails are well overdue, don't you?
Thank you one & all from the bottom of my glass...erm, I mean heart! Lol.
Ramblin' Steve
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